I've Learned...

There are a lot of quotes etc over the internet...but the ones mentioned below are a few ones which teaches us a lot...and so thought would be great sharing it with all...I know these are just another copy paste stuff...but it at times its worth learning from that...

I've Learned...

I've learned... that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. I've learned... that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. It may be the last time you see them. I've learned... that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel. I've learned... that either you control your attitude or it controls you. I've learned... that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences. I've learned... that my best friend and I can do anything or nothing and have the best time. I've learned... that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up. I've learned... that true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. I've learned... that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have. I've learned... that maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you've had and what you've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you've celebrated. I've learned... that no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. I've learned... that it isn't always enough to be forgiven by others, Sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself. I've learned... that our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become. I've learned... that just because two people argue, it doesn't mean they don't love each other. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do. I've learned... that we don't have to change friends if we understand that friends change. I've learned... that two people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different. I've learned... that even when you think you have no more to give, when a friend cries out to you, you will find the strength to help. I've learned... that credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being. I've learned... that the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon. I've learned... that family and friends are what make us who we are today, and without them we would never be complete. I've learned... that you cannot make someone love you. All you can do is stalk them and hope they panic and give in. I've learned... that it is not what you wear; it is how you take it off. Hope these quotes did leave you with a good feeling :-)

Journey of the Heart....

It was just about a few days they both had met...but this day, the moments spent in Khandala had got them close. Rudra and Abha reached their place in anticipation that either of them would call and so they could talk for some more time till they could call the day off. 

Just then her phone rang.... and it was him...she had so much to talk about the day to him... but when they started talking...silence took over...they both wanted to say so much about the day, but just couldn't. As both had to be at work early next morning, they decided to call it a day and both hung up the call to a restless night. 

Up early morning, both of them did hardly sleep that night.. and were now just waiting to speak to each other. Abha who was impatiently waiting for his call..decide to make a call her self. Beautiful conversations took place..they both wanted to say a few things to each other but just couldn't. In the end they planned to meet in the evening. Rudra asked her out for dinner...for which he had made plans when they were returning from Khandala. He knew he would not be able to tell his feelings to her so easily...all he knew was the feeling were mutual, which gave him enough courage to plan a surprise for her. Abah with the thought of meeting him was super excited. Hardly could work all day, eager for the evening plans.. 

On the other side Rudra also could not work all day and kept on planning a few things for the evening. He wanted to surprise Abha and gift her a very special evening...And the clock struck 5.30 pm ...he called her and told her that he would come and pick her up from her work place by 7 pm. She inisted on knowing where they were heading for the evening..but he just dint wana disclose. Time was just killing Abha with the suspense.. 

Rudra as punctual reached her office by 7 pm and he saw her waiting at the gate..looking radiant then ever... he saw her from far and knew she was the girl he wanted and waited all his life... he drove down close to her and got down to hug her...To Abha`s surprise he had got her most favorite flowers i.e. Lilies... she recollected that she had shared with him once how much she loved them. It was beautifully wrapped in an elegant purple floral paper... 

She freaked out with that bouquet..and kept wondering whats next. He then made her sit in the car...and started to drive out... He played in a cd which had all her favorite songs. She was so touched and kept on realizing what all she had shared with him in all these days and he did remember almost every minute things. She had no clue on how to express her feelings back to him...all she did was held his hand and said thank you for this beautiful evening..  In turn he said there is so much more to come honey..  And he could see her blush...

He had planned to take her for a drive and all but he now couldnt hold back his feelings much and so he drove down to the restaurant where he was gonna tell her all that he felt for her. The dinner was planned at a restaurant called Sidewok at Nariman point. They had this beautiful candle lit dinner table well reserved for them, which Rudra had booked well in advance. The restura is quite popular for their food, ambiance and karaoke... She was feeling at the top of the world.  As they sat down...all Rudra did was kept looking at her..and had a beautiful feeling every time he saw her blush and smile. He now knew whatever he has planned for the evening wont go waste...he knew she was the one..he could see a friend and a companion for life in her..

They in the meanwhile just ordered a few drinks and starters...and suddenly Rudra asked her to excuse him as he wanted to just head to the wash room... Rudra just wanted to be alone for a minute and re think what he was going to do...he just pulled up himself and knew that it was just perfect...he then walked out...and straight headed to the karaoke area.. Abha just kept wondering whats happening as she had no clue on whats next and wondering whats taking him so long in the washroom. 

Just then she heard a harsh voice asking for attention...and to that instant she knew it was him ...she looked around and saw him with a mic...she knew nothing of whats coming up next.. He then said... I know I don`t have a good voice to sing...but then this would be the best way to tell my Abha what I feel for her...so here it goes Abha just for you... 

Mujhe Teri aankhon ki gehrai mein doobne de

Mujhe teri baahon ki jannat mein khone de
Tere bina yeh jeewan
Jaise suna Sapna
Tere bina tujhko har pal
Dhundhee yeh dil mera

Mujhe Teri aankhon ki gehrai mein doobne de

Na Na nahi jana pyaar kya
Nahi jana hota hai yeh intezaar kya
Teri aankhon ne sab kuch kaha
Kyun na kahe teri zubaan

Mana mana mene pyaar hai
Kaisa chaya dekho mujhpe khumaar hai
Mere sang zameen aur aasmaan
Phir kyun hai khoyi meri har dishaa

Mujhe Teri aankhon ki gehrai mein doobne de

Abha had never imagined a guy would sing for her like this...but she knew this was the same she did feel for him... and so she got up and went near him...took the mic...and sang...

Woh Pehli Baar Jab Hum Mile
Haathon Mein Haath Jab Hum Chale
Ho Gaya Ye Dil Deewana 
Hota Hai Pyaar Kya Isne Jaana

He was so touched...he dint just let her complete the song..and hugged her..they were in a world of their own..and suddenly they could her claps...and realized the other guests and the waiters etc were clapping for them.. Rudra..just bent on his knees and said... Be mine forever.. And she just replied...And forever...

They then got back to the table...holding hands... looking at each other...They knew this was the evening they could never forget in their life...dinner got thru...and the beautiful evening was coming to an end...he dropped her home...and just when she got down the car...he hugged her again...and whispered ... I love you .... she did the same.. They bid goodbye and as good things come to an end...so did the day....

(To be continued.....)

Journey of the Heart....

Rains had stopped, but non of them had realized....as they were so engrossed looking deep in to each others eyes... Rudra now knew how beautiful Abha was...he kept staring at those hazel eyes which kept blushing and looking back at his... He felt she was the one who he kept on looking for all his life..and was hoping she would feel the same...but he dint wana tell her so soon. The same time Abha had million thoughts running thru her mind, but at first she was hoping he would hold her hand as that would so confront her indirectly that he really liked her..as much as she did.. She too dint wana say anything about her likeness to him.

Both kept quite for long...looking at each other on and off.. stealing those side glances. Suddenly a thunder broke the silence...and he said to her... shall we walk down to have some hot tea and grab something to eat?   She dint wanna say yes...as she still wanted to be by him sitting like that on bench for some more time...So she let her mind say yes. They got off the bench and started walking down the small hill.. suddenly Abha started feeling cold coz of the strong winds. The moment Rudra saw that...he took no time in holding her hand again..and this time more firmly. Abha just looked at him for a few seconds as she dint knew how to react..just then he smiled and said lets walk down together...

They walked down to a nearby restaurant...ordered for some tea and snacks... they sat opposite to each other..silently looking into each others eyes. Just then the snacks arrived..and conversations started... they shared their likes..dislikes..all about their family..their past relationships..there was just so much to share for them.... They now knew so much about each other which was enough to keep them together..

Just then Abha saw Rudra feeling a bit low..and she asked him if everything was fine...his face had gone quite pale..and in a harsh voice he said...babe its time to leave..the train to home is in the next hour... Abha just never wanted this day to end ever..but she knew it had too. They started walking down to the station...and this time..Abha went ahead and held his hand firmly. They knew by now that the feeling was mutual of being with each other not just for the day but for many days ahead....They reached the station..and still had half an hour for the train to arrive.. they just sat down  on one of the planks there...still holding hands. Both of them knew...some feelings are better left unsaid...Rudra then suddenly asked her..did you have a nice time with me? Abha knew this was her best day ever spent...she just smiled and answered his question by just resting her head on his shoulders..he was feeling on top of the world... he then kept his hand over her shoulder...Time just flew...the train just entered the station..both of them moved towards it and entered their compartment.. The compartment they got their seats in was already occupied with a family of 4 kids..They did manage to get a place to sit by each other..but were not so comfortable as it was way to noisy for them. The journey was just of 2 hours so Rudra asked her...how about standing near the door and talking? Oh she just jumped to that idea...she just wanted to run away from everyone just to be with him.. 

They stood opposite to each other...and kept talking...never realized that they have reached dadar.. As V.T was coming close their faces were turning sad. The compartment got empty at dadar...and still half an hour to reach V.T.... so Rudra said...lets sit now as its all empty.. They sat by each other very close and just took her hands in his...and same moment she asked him..how did your day go by? She knew the answer but still wanted to know from him. All he did was took his hands near her face..got a bit closer and kissed her forehead...and said..It was one of the most beautiful day I had ever spent and would love to spend many such  moments with you... Abha nodded her head agreeing to what he said...and rested her head on his shoulders.. It was a very long day for them and even bit tiring...they dint realize when they slept of in each others arms... and suddenly they woke up to a sudden jerk.. realizing that they have reached V.T. and was time to bid goodbye...

Both were sad...dint leave their hands even while getting off the train..they just dint want to leave each other....but they knew they had too... Abha had to take a cab to home..and Rudra would have to take a train back home.. So Rudra thought to drop her off till the cab... They came out of the station..he hunted a cab for her...still holding hands...very firmly..he then made her sit in the cab...but just before she sat..he hugged her and bid good bye.... this was the most painful moment for them...The cab took off...their hands parted ways...but Rudra stood there staring at her and so did she from the cab... till the cab disappeared in the crowd....They knew as all good things come to an end ... so did the day....

(To be continued.....)

Journey of the Heart....

It was 5 in the morning.. Abha just couldn't sleep all night as she feared not being up on time for the most beautiful day she could have ever thought off. It was a day when she was to spend the whole day with her new found friend Rudra...who in just a very short span became very special to her. All the time as she waited for the alarm to buzz at 5.30..memories kept crossing her mind about how they happened to know each other ...which was just 7-8 days back.

They happened to interact over the internet and with that first interaction they had this spark flying within them. Things went beyond just chats to phone calls..and in just 4-5 days they planned to meet for dinner. As they met for the first time...sparks were getting bit low as to what it was over the  calls and chats..she found him quite amazing..tall, dark and handsome..she couldn't have asked for more. Abha was more prettier from her heart and soul then appearance but still that never let her down. Her amazing persona and electrifying smile kept her going all along. Rudra found her more amazing over calls and chat...then seeing her face to face..or maybe it was the first time they were meeting and hence bit of hesitation had taken over Abha. Yet the evening went amazing and before they departed they did land up making a movie plan. Abha somehow was getting attracted to this very intellectual and handsome guy. She couldn't keep her eyes off him and even after getting home she could feel his scent and aura around her which kept her dreaming all while. She wasn't sure if he ever felt that for her. Calls and chats went on till they met up for the movie. Things started changing here. Seems Rudra really enjoyed her company, her smile, her style kinda everything. In just a few conversations that day he asked her to spend a day with him. As it was month of August and in Mumbai  the weather is beautiful as it rains :) She went in for a surprise...as she felt Rudra dint like her as much. But within herself she couldn't think of saying no to him. As this would be the best way to spend and know him more. She promptly said yes. And then they planned a day in Khandala the coming saturday.

And the alarm buzzed...her heart was beating like never before. She knew this was the day. She had never ever spent a day like this with anyone. She kept thinking whether what is happening is right or wrong...but she went with her heart which wanted to spend the day with him. She got up..got dressed and was ready to leave for V.T station where he was to meet her and then they would take a train to khandala. God had hand picked that day!!! He showered all his blessings in the form of rains and beautiful romantic weather. As she reached the station...she kept thinking what if he doesnt come...it would be very heartbreaking..and just then a tap on her back..as she turned around she saw him dressed in a causal tee and torn denims and a jacket to add on. She kept on drooling. And he smiled and so did she..and for once she now knew the day is all theirs. Abha did feel now that Rudra definitely liked her company else why would he even think of spending a day with her. They got their tickets and the journey of 2 hours started.

They got the window seat..and sat facing each other. Amazing conversations were taking place...2 hours of knowing each other.. she couldn't have asked for anything more. The rains were also helping their bit to keep them going. By now she knew the liking for him was just increasing with every second they were together. Train halted at one of the stations where amazing vada pavs are available. Both of them jumped with the thought of having one and realized both of them love it a lot. They got 2 for each of them..and loved it..and the conversations continued.. 

Finally Khandala came.. it was time to get down and explore the place with a new found friend. It kept raining nonstop since morning. They planned to walk down to a point there. It was a 20 minutes walk..but the best Abha could have imagined. They were completely wet inspite of the jackets they were wearing. But non were complaining as they were so engrossed in each other...they kept walking and suddenly...their hands brushed each others...a lighting sort of a feel gushed thru her and she just moved a little far. She could see Rudra feeling the same but he dint move far instead he in a surprise just held her hand. She just dint know how to react but yes she knew one thing that she dint wana leave his hands. He clasped his fingers with hers. For her this was a moment she would never forget. He looked at her as if he wanted to say a few things...but kept quite...for the next ten minutes they kept walking quite...just one thing they could hear was the rain drops. 

Alas they reached the point. It was a breathtaking view from there. Beautiful mountains and valleys is all you can see. All looking so fresh coz of the rains. It was a moment so meant for them. They were still holding hands and stood at the edge of the cliff enjoying the weather, the company, the rains. Silent conversations went on for quite a while..all which spoke were their eyes and their smiles. Just then they saw a bench nearby. They sat there quite close to each other but still it was as if they were miles apart. This was the best way they could have known each other. She somehow wanted to hold hands again...and just in that moment he just turned bit towards her and kept his arms over the bench..almost very close to her shoulders..as if he just wanted to rest it on her arms. 

Moments passed by..close to 2 hours...and none of them realized..sharing life..sharing everything about eachother in their conversations. Guess he had started liking her a lot...she could see it in his eyes..which hardly took away from her. Those sideway glances were wow for her.  It was a moment they never wanted to end especially Abha...but as all good things come to an end...so did the rains....

(To be continued.....)

Life Then, Life Now

While I was travelling to work today morning in our very own Mumbai locals....sat by the window..staring at the life passing by...the 1/2 hr train journey got my mind in to many loops of thoughts. All about the Life today and life I lived 10 years back..

Now that I look back I get a thought that how did I survive a life without all the gadgets and luxury I have today. No doubt I was born with a golden spoon...but that never stopped me from enjoying the basics of life.. 

Those were the days when there were no mobiles but still all my friends knew my day plans and we used to meet so often though there weren't as many cafe's as there are today. Used to travel on my Kinetic or Bus or Trains...Life used to be a routine of college / work & classes... and still had time to call up friends and meet them. Clubbing over weekends...movies all weekends..life was never dull and never had a time to crib. Life was a complete fun. No tensions..beautiful relationships, amazing set of friends...No Face book ..no twitter and yet it was fun. All my friends knew where I am...how I am ...my holiday pictures are shared via actual albums..

Birthdays used to be fun.. giving treats with adjusting with the pocket money was awesome. Chipping in money for friends was fun. Watching Tv in those big and bulky tv....amazing episodes of Dekh Bhai Dekh and such ones..full of fun....wana hear music ..used to head to a store buy a cassette / CD and listen them in the walkman...

And now...hardly get time in life...a minute without the mobile is a feeling like getting a heart attack..cant even think of that..but I still talk less then the days when I dint have mobile..Used to play oodles of games and puzzles with family and friends..but now with the PSP I have..am just playing it all alone..which I have named it stress buster. Don't even know when I last visited a music store to buy a cd...all I do now is download and upload it on my Ipod Touch. With the LCDs and home theater systems..movies in theaters are rare now. Drive down to work...in the fancies of car and ac...that now even a day if I have to travel in train I am not so upbeat about it..Long distance train travel...which I used to enjoy is now more of a pain...and all I say is can't we just fly down there? 


I share my day plans, holiday plans..my mood swings all by tweeting and status messages...Other day a friend asked me where are you now and I replied "Din't you read my tweet or status message..am out on a holiday.." Aahh there were days I used to call up everyone and share my plans. 


Life has changed for good or bad don't know..without mobiles / laptops / ipods / psps / social networking sites ..life was awesome fun...din't have time to crib about life.. & now when I have all of these and much more..am cribbing more..carving for more. A day without any of these..is like a bad day for me. There are a millions of people who are not even lucky for a one time meal also and when I look at myself...why my mind is still wanting for more..


These gadget fancies are there to sort life...but I think my life is more unsorted now & guess its the same story for many of us..

Friends!!!

Friends are life...period!!!

I would have no idea how a life would be without friends.. and am sure we all feel that. They make our life worth living. Most of the time we share more with them then our own families. Age / Caste has nothing to do when we be friends with anyone. 

In this networking era...I guess we have more friends online then in real.. we wish more mornings / evenings then we do to our family and real friends..Online friends know more about our mood and day plans then our real ones.. The minute we go low..all need to do is tweet or ping and get back swinging like a ping pong ball. Life couldn't be this easy. 

People come and people go...but foot prints always stay by. Never had many friends ..always had few but really good friends..say best friends..its always hard when they leave your side. As I always say  " Its easy to start and end a relation, difficult is how we manage it " . Its more tough when you know you did so much for that friend and then still you are left yearning for more. 

I had this friend of mine...met her at some accounts classes more then a decade back. She happened to stay near my place.. and so we got to know each other and hit off well. Those days I had a Kinetic (awesome fun) so when we knew we stayed closer to each other  I kinda with a good gesture offered a lift home. She was glad about it and I too got a company home.. Slowly as the time passed by I got to know her more.. She came from a very middle class family and kind of 8 people stayed in a room as a big as I had my kitchen. But I never looked at that when I make friends with anyone.. Especially after knowing her more I always offered help in all means I could ever. I was born and brought up very much with a silver spoon in my mouth. I think of something and dad would get it...glad I never misused that luxury. So as time passed by we had these HSC boards exams. She used to find a lot of trouble at her place studying with other 7 people in the house and the tensions brewing with all of them individually. I offered her to come over my place and study with me. We have a big apartment and just 4 of us living, so would have been no issues to study here. 


She was very glad with this gesture.. my parents also took good care of her especially all the days when we had exams, she had stayed at my place. Days went on.. and till our final year exams.. all of them she appeared from my place. All this long we had become best of friends..family knew each other...such good friends that whenever dad used to get any movie / play tickets..hers was there by default. So is those times when we used to have family lunches or dinners she was at default invited. For her I was the one soul with who she could laugh with, cry with and share everything under the sun and feel nice. So was for me after a while. She became more like a sister then just a best friend. A day came when her father pressured her for marriage, as she came from a typical marwari family..she dint have much say. She used to land up at my place and cry over the issues..while her wedding  I helped her a lot..been with her all thru her ups and downs last few years..


She wasn't much happy with her marriage. All she did was a compromise for her father and their financial status. She needed a shoulder to cry on and that for sure was mine. But times changed.. things stared going very well with her. I was very happy for her. I always wanted her to have the best as I had seen her go thru some tough times in life. 


Its a tendency I feel to forget people in their good times. She was for sure one of them. As things started sailing smooth for her..she din't need me as a anchor in her life. And that did hurt me a lot. It still haunts me as in when we do so much for someone..then we are no one for that person anymore. The number of calls started reducing, the meet ups reduced, especially at a time when I needed a friend and when I was going thru some personal crises. I wonder how can she forget all the help given to her all the while when she needed them the most. Best of friends at once, today we don't even call up each other. For few years we just wished each other on birthdays and now thats even a far off thing for us. Not only with her I came across a similar situation 2-3 times more. I wonder why people do this, as I remember I never behaved like that with anyone. 


Now I don't believe in the term best friends. I am the same to everyone. Need help and I am there. In this way things are easy to perceive. Easy to take in when things are rough. Less expectations makes it more easy to maintain. And with so many networking sites all over us..come across so many people..so many beautiful people..made some very very close friends too.. but I still miss my best pals..no one can fill in those spaces left by them. 


People come and people go...as long as I have left a good mark in everyone's life..I would never have regrets!!!

 

All we do now is tweet - poke -ping

I remember a decade back when I was done with my graduation and GNIIT, Dad had promised me a desktop. After a lot of pleading and harassing him hehe…he got me one..some where in July.

I had this Techie / Gadget fever all life long. But the real fun started in life when I got earning well to manage my fever by myself J. I was completely glued to my new desktop. Got my self a 100 hrs account from MTNL ( gosh now am online 24/7 and still at times find it less). Within no time the hours were done. They dint come cheap. Plead a lot to dad for a recharge of the same & got thru.

Now when I look back a 100 hrs for some odd days and now being online over ISDN / Broadband lines for almost 24/7, kinda crazy. Those days when young used ICQ/ Hotmail / India times for chats / emails etc.. made some awesome friends with who am still in touch with..and slowly using India times  / ICQ became passé. Then came in MTNL broadband..awesome connectivity compared to those modem days. And came in Google..the mother of all. I really cant recollect a single day not using once also in a day..since I got familiar with it, be it on my lappie or mobile.

Soon the world got in to networking trend. Came in Orkut / Facebook..Orkut started loosing its fame since facebook tookover..Another heaps of networking sites came up.. I must have registered with so many..and now wont even remember the same. Face book helped me in connecting with so many old friends…and all my cousins with who I wouldn’t talk for days / years. Share thoughts / holiday plans and so much more. Kinda made me lazy as never landed up calling many of them. Just all I did was poked poked n pinged!!! Even on birthdays..all we do is post it on the wall..and am sure this is the story of us all in this era.

Throw in Twitter then…a 140 chrac tool has taken the world for a nice ride. Started with just few followers and in the run now I got odd 500. Am still not sure do I tweet sense…I wish Gm to almost all I know on twitter..but sadly I never wished like that to my parents / cousins…

Twitter is one place where friends are made not by the way they look and by their age …but by how their mindsets are, what they really think about anything in general. Made amazing contacts / well networked… A place to share happiness n sadness in just 140 charcs ..sometimes more faster then I would do with parents too.

The last decade has changed so much and so have we. We know and have networked with so many people…and wonder how many we really relate to, how many times we are real, how many times do we express real feelings. So many times when am sad too I still tweet happy stuff..and am sure many of us do that… I still wish to go back a few years where life was so different..As now most of the time we do is tweet..poke n ping……